Today marks my last day being 34, and I find myself looking back at this past year with a mix of gratitude and reflection. It’s been a year of profound change, one that’s brought both challenges and rewards I never expected. Now, as I approach 35, I realize that I’m not only closing a chapter—I’m stepping into a new one with more clarity and appreciation for life.
Earlier this year, I went through one of the hardest moments I’ve faced in a long time: a relapse in February. After years of sobriety, slipping back felt like a major setback. It brought on feelings of disappointment and frustration. But in that difficult moment, I realized something important: recovery is not about perfection. It’s about resilience, learning, and getting back up when you fall. So I did. I made the decision to go to rehab, knowing that it wasn’t just about stopping the relapse—it was about finding my way back to the things that mattered most.
Rehab was a transformative experience. It gave me the tools and the space to rediscover myself, to heal, and to come out stronger on the other side. I learned to enjoy life again, but this time in a new way—one that’s more mindful, more present. I started appreciating the simple things, like the peace of a quiet morning or the joy of creating music again. Life feels different now, but in the best way possible. I’m no longer just going through the motions—I’m really living.
Since coming out of rehab, I’ve felt a shift in how I see the world and myself. I’m beginning to enjoy life in ways I hadn’t for a long time. I’ve found joy in the everyday moments, and I’m inspired again—by music, by new creative ventures, and by the people in my life who’ve stood by me. That sense of inspiration feels fresh and exciting, like I’m starting a new chapter that’s filled with possibilities.
As I say goodbye to 34, I’m filled with hope for what 35 will bring. The lessons of this past year have been invaluable, and I know they’ve shaped me into someone stronger and more grounded. Life after the relapse and rehab isn’t just about recovery—it’s about rediscovery. I’m looking forward to where this journey takes me next, and I’m ready for all the new experiences that are waiting.
Let’s see where 35 takes me.